He is MY KHAN..... !!!!

He is the “LOVE” of MY LIFE……. I don’t know why but I am in love with him madly, deeply and unconditionally since ages. When I was around 2 years of age I first saw him, was acquainted with him. He was like a part of my family…. And yes as I love my parents I love him as well the same way. There are no barriers, no conditions, no limit.. nothing !! Just immense love and respect for him. He is a kind of inspiration to me. It’s like an unusual feeling what I experience when he comes in front of my eyes.  That essence can only be felt and can’t be explained in mere words. I like him rather I love him for what he is; no matter what he is doing and he will do in future my love for him will never change or end. I will always love him the way I used to love him since ages. I follow what he says, because somewhere I can sense that I can related to him, whatever he is saying I want to do the same because may be only that way I am comfortable to express myself and I can make myself positive in all ways. He emits some kind of positive vibes all the time that’s what I feel. If I am upset or sad I listen to him and his saying about the world, people and himself and after that I soon realise that I am back to my original form, where no more negativities left and it’s like I need to do something good and nice. I believe this world to be a beautiful place and I need to make it a better place to live in for myself. I trust him, respect him, and follow him. My love for him is unconditional. No matter what the world thinks of him, my love and respect for him will be the same throughout.  He is the man who can make me smile and make me cry. He is a person I look up to just like my dad, another man who is just like another dad for me whom I knew from my childhood just after I came in to this world.  He is the man I always cherished. He has always helped me to deal worst situations. I always believed as he said “end mein sab kuch thik ho jata hai, aur agar nahi hota hai then woh end nahi hai picture abhi baki hai mere dost” I learned a lot from him. He is my superhero like my dad!!! J  I love him immensely.  

You can’t be a dictator in a relationship !!!

Diary of a single independent girl....

So, I am suddenly single. Am I sad? Hmm… well, I would have to be inhuman if I wasn’t at all affected.   But I am not crying buckets or listening to sad songs not even on a sad mode. I am feeling more anger than pain, and that really helps. I have no regrets of breaking-up. According to my friends they think I am stubborn. Yes, I am a lot of times. But that wasn’t in play here. I think I am justified in sticking to my stand.   I am a model; Rajat began seeing me, knowing that.  It wasn’t as if I sprung on him on one fine day. He can’t tell me that I have to choose him or a lingerie shoot. It’s a bizarre as me asking him to choose between me and his work. It’s not okay to be a dictator in a relationship. I am just not the kind of girl you can put down rules for. I won’t try to dominate in a relationship or allow myself to be dominated. I am an adult and I decide for myself- basically my life, my rules. It’s as simple as that. Don’t give me your ultimatums. It’s a deal breaker. Even as a child I never liked anyone telling me what to do and what not to do. And I am sure I won’t let anyone do it now. Why should I? I have my dad to thank for that. He always wanted us to make our own decisions and then face the consequences that came with it. It was his way of making us independent. So now I won’t let anyone tell me what to do. Sure, we can discuss it. I am willing to listen and I am open to all sorts of discussion. You do make adjustments in relationships and try to find common ground and that’s reasonable. What isn’t it acting like a dictator? If he hadn’t given me an ultimatum and said something like, “I don’t want my friends ogling you.”  I would have probably skipped this shoot. What worried me was that he thought he could give me an option and I would toe the line. I can’t be in a relationship with a man who thinks like that.  My work is an important part of my life and my man has to accept me with it. There is nothing wrong to be independent in life. If I hadn’t done this photo shoot, who’s to say it would stop there?  It’s just human nature. Maybe someday I will find the guy for who I will feel like giving it all up. And that guy won’t even have to ask me, because if he does, then he’s not that guy. Does that make sense to you?